It does not matter how slowly you go as long as you do not stop.-Confucius
I have struggled with creativity since I had my first art show.
I know deep down its because I am afraid of failure. Failure to meet up to the quality of work; failure to finish a piece; failure to have a good idea; failure to meet up to others expectations. In the end I am only failing at the fact I stopped creating. Which is absolutely understandable, and now that I recognize it, I can move on and work through the feeling of something 'not being good enough.'
I had my second art show and a friend really liked the piece. She asked me to paint her one. I admitted that it would be very different from the original as it will be personalized for her specifically. I know that because she is a good friend, I am able to move through the painting knowing it will be right for her. I want to thank her for giving me the confidence to create something....a little validation goes a long way. I know I do not need others validation, however, it can only help because putting myself out there, being so vulnerable is really scary.
I do my best to no longer beat myself up when I have a creativity block. Its a big learning process. I forgive myself for 'taking a break' (if that's what I want to call it). Having been blocked for so long and now actually moving forward, even if its at a snail's pace, is an accomplishment in and of itself.
It goes along with the tale of 'The Tortoise and The Hare.' Slow and steady wins the race. The most important thing right now is for me to continue the journey and understand that I will have some bumps in the road. I am learning many lessons along the way and grow with each one. I have felt a shift in my life and that's all that matters.
As I child I dreamed of being a teacher (and fulfilled it) and an artist. I loved helping others and doing anything art related. My mother was very creative so I had that in me as well. In my experience, the first thing I had to learn to do was ask for help. If you have kids, ask your spouse to help more.
Often times we get so caught up in day to day activities and life, and miss out on actually enjoying life. Put joy back into your life and you will be surprised on how much more time will be open for you. If you have kids, do you want them to pursue their dreams? How can they learn to chase their dreams if you are not chasing your own?
If there is anything you have been putting off for a while, I encourage you to take a closer look. What is really holding you back?