I was a blocked artist for almost 20 years. I was discouraged to continue my journey as a teenager. I was told I was not good enough and my works were thrown away and I thrived for the encouragement . I wandered lost as I did not have the confidence to start over until now.
Two years ago, I took 5 paintings I had completed to Bodega on Roosevelt on a whim. A friend had shared a link to my Facebook page and the owner was looking for artists. I was scared and worried about rejection. Immediately, she said I was able to show for the month of November, which was 2 months away. I still struggled with even starting a work, let alone finishing and coming up with new ideas. I completed 6+ more paintings within that period. I succeeded. I sold 1 painting in the show and was amazed when my friend, who collects works herself, pulled me aside and said you need to double the price and add $50. I had not yet reached out or even knew where to begin with pricing. I was happy to have a place to display my soul.
In the meantime, I was purchasing my first house. I spent days looking at 12-15 houses for the right one. I spent the rest of the time painting and working on art 'when I found the time.'
I hired someone to build a website and when the time came, I ended up the one in charge of building my website and he printed the wrong things on my business cards. The winds were out of my sails and I did not have the energy to spend on my passions as I felt like I hit a wall and struggled to continue on the art journey.
Fast forward 2 years, I knew in my heart I had to continue pursuing my dream. I was out of work for 9 months due to an injury and endured 20 hours a day in bed because sitting and standing were painful. I was doubtful still about my ability to move forward. I felt lost when I thought about who I am as an artist. I took some art classes in high school and a few in college but for the most part was self taught.
Sitting in front of a canvas is still scary for me every time. However, it is getting easier and easier because I know through my faith that I will be successful. I encourage others, whether you are an artist or musician, writer or composer. Go for it! The pictures below depict me and some of my friends at my first juried art entry into a gallery. Mine was chosen among 100 works out of 200. The 3 works are the ones I entered. 1. Peacock Rising 2. Repelling the Ocean and 3. Garden of Ego
Here are a few ideas to get you started:
1. JOURNAL- I know, I struggle with it too...however writing out without judgment or worry helps clear the mind. All the muddled thoughts, doubts and concerns get to melt onto the pages. Let them go. You never have to read them again. As a matter of fact, burn them or shred them.
2. LISTEN TO YOUR HEART-Dig deep. When you were a kid, you had nothing holding you back from your dream. What did your soul tell you what you are to do with your life?
3. GO FOR IT!-What do you have to lose? Absolutely nothing! You will gain more insight into who you are and be the person you were born to be.
4. FACEBOOK-Still leery? I have found many groups to join for inspiration and wanna know what? There is a reason we have all heard of writer's block. Everyone has been through it one time or another. So, step off that hamster wheel and get out of the cyclical rut. BE YOURSELF!