...To know your happiness is a lie? This is a quote from the TV Series, 'Once Upon A Time,' on Netflix. Take that in and you actually see what a deep question it is..
If you were to ask anyone in my life, they would never have thought I was unhappy. They could not believe that under all the confidence I exuded, I was lost and could not describe who I am. I know that deep down inside I was truly the person who I wanted to be with exception of the fact that I always worried about what people thought and put them first. I could not for the life of me understand it until I was confronted with the fact that I had a serious injury that left me bed ridden for almost three months. Deep down I was confused, angry and misunderstood. And to be honest, this was not the first time I had been given the opportunity to face this realization. I did not have the strength to confront it.
However, after 4 surgeries and a revelation that I had been chasing after people and things that I thought were there for me. I found out I had to accept and ask for help from people who I barely knew, yet were able to drop everything to take me to my doctors appointments because I was not able to drive and had difficulty with every day tasks.
Needless to say, I own my happiness now. I forgive and accept the circumstances I have been given and am grateful that I was able to come out on the other end a happy person. I have decided to continue my passion and use the talent I was given instead of living my life on the hamster wheel. I know I have a choice and will always choose to thrive.
My question for you is are you happy? What is it that you really want to be doing? Are you taking at least 10 minutes a day to pursue your life purpose? And if not, why not and when will you start?
This month I chose to complete a 30 day painting challenge and competed it. It was not an easy task yet I had to even show myself I have the creativity in metro do it. It is my life purpose. I also chose to make it into a #365 day painting challenge as well. I have a demanding schedule at times and will have to double up or triple up some days and will do it without 'beating myself up' as long as I am honest with myself.
What are you going to do to thrive? Take one day and notice there is always time. How much time do you spend watching TV? Hours on Facebook? Avoiding the task at hand? Even 5 minutes spent writing a list or journaling is a big leap, forward. Keep doing it every day and notice the time shows up. What's your priority? What is something you have always wanted todo? DO IT!
I am committing to myself to blog 1x a month at least. I hope you enjoy and start doing things for yourself. My goal is to help encourage you. Please respond or write me and tell me about your journey! How are you showing up in life? Xx